Thursday, March 11, 2010


I've been trying for hours to figure out how to post a picture of Jake on here. I have failed. Once I get Wade's assistance, I will get a picture up.

Yesterday around 6:50 P.M. we made the horrible/heartbreaking decision to put our Jake to sleep. All I can say is, AWFUL. Jake, our Alaskan Malamute, was our 11 year old best friend. Wade had him since he was 4 months old and I was able to share the last 5 years of his life. What an incredible dog. He was so special to our little family and truly was our best friend. The worst part is watching Wade deal with this. It has absolutely broken his heart. I know he feels as if a huge part of him is missing. Jake was Wade's best friend and had been with him through some very difficult times. Jake was his constant and loving companion.

Jakey poo, I miss you buddy. I miss you more than I ever thought I would. I always dreaded this time and knew it would be coming. I had truly hoped it would be later rather than sooner. Unfortunately, you had some complications and your big body had developed arthritis that wasn't helping you heal. I know we made the right decision for you. Although you were hurting, you still had that adorable smile on your face. But, now I know you have the smile and are able to run, jump and chase lots of chickens! I know you are with our special Kita lady and that she is so happy you are there. You can get into lots of mischief again together. I also know that there are many happy family and friends who are grateful for your companionship.

I have to say thanks to our sweet vet. She was pretty Awesome. She didn't have to spend as much time as she did, nor did she have to take such excellent, gentle care of our Jake, but she did. She definitely went above and beyond her duty to show us that she was feeling a lot of empathy for our situation. She cried right along with us and that told me that she truly knew what a hard decision this was for us and she was doing all she could to make it as comfortable as possible. I washed the blanket that Jake had been laying on in the garage the past few weeks tonight. I'm going to take it to the vet for them to use for other animals (they are in dire need of donated blankets if you have any way to help, that would be wonderful). I wanted to take a picture of Jake, a treat, and the blanket tomorrow to show them how grateful we are for their wonderful care and treatment. It made such a horrible decision and event a tolerable and more special one for us to know and remember that we were there when he passed on. It was very peaceful, quick and I know he was happy to be out of pain.

Oh, my Jakey boy. I love you so much and I miss you so. My heart aches. I wish I could hear your little howl outside right now. I know others in heaven can and are enjoying it.

Wade, I'm so sorry you lost your best friend. I'm sorry your heart is broken and that you feel so lost. You and Jake were made for eachother and you were meant to have him. He loved you dearly and I know he will watch over you until we can meet him again. I love you honey.


Shawna said...

Brynn you are such a great person, with so much love to give. I do have to say that if Wade didnt have you at this awful time I would be way worried about him. However I know he has the sweetest most compassionate wife who loves him so much. He still has you as his best friend and for that I know he is truly grateful. I cant wait to see you guys this weekend.

Kayla said...

Brynn, I know exactly what you are going through. We had to have our dog of 15 years put to sleep a few weeks ago. It was so hard and we spent a good deal of time crying and remembering the good times.

We too were lucky to have such an incredible vet. He and his whole staff were incredible. His assistant was in the room with us after the dog was put to sleep, and we were just petting her and talking to eachother. The assistant told my mom "It's hard to be brave enough to do the right thing." That couldn't be more true.

It was such a difficult day and still we have times when the pain is so fresh. When we can feel the pain of lonliness. I'll tell you the same thing I told my mom though. He was lucky to have you guys! He was lucky that there were people with him who loved him when he left this earth. He left here knowing how loved he was and that he wasn't alone.

Wade is lucky to have you during this difficult time. Let him know the pain does ease over time. Good luck and I'll be thinking of you guys! (Sorry this comment is so long...)

The Adcocks said...

Ok, I totally cried reading that. As a fellow dog lover, I am so sorry for your loss. It is amazing how much those little critters become part of the family and so much more than "just a dog"?